I just lost my father

Especially with older BOTL here, I'm sure some of you have been where I am now. I dont really know what I'm doing, but I'm doing everything I can. My father passed away this morning. He wasnt ill, didnt have medical issues, and was only 56. We dont yet know why, but he didnt wake up this morning. Ive been handling everything so far. From calling the fam, to going and telling his still living mother, dealling with the coroner and medical examiner, even having to help carry his body from his room. I've barely even had any time to myself to deal with this. I now have to care for my mother who has a lot of medical issues and soon will be without insurance. I dont even know why I'm telling you all this. I guess I just need to get it out. I'm 26 years old, and I just went from being the youngest son to the leader of the family. I'm not ready for this.

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ug dan

Sorry for your loss.

ENFIDL

Been praying for you brother! Again I'm very sorry to hear this

y2pascoe

Sorry for your loss, friend. Praying for you and your family.

Teege

I wish I had words I could say to help but to be honest I dont think those words exist. I will be praying for you and your family.

kuzi16

PsychoSJG:
I'm 26 years old, and I just went from being the youngest son to the leader of the family. I'm not ready for this.

nobody is ever ready for that. this is an unfathomable loss to many here, myself included. be strong for others, but make sure you DO take time for yourself. know that others will be strong for you too.

big chunks

Im so sorry to hear about your father, my prayers are with you and your family.

RampMonkey

With great sympathy, I am sorry for your loss. You will be are in our thoughts and prayers. Remain strong and be there for your family in time of need, but like many before me have said...make sure you have time for YOU as well. Take care brother.

RBeckom

You have my sympathy. You and your family have my prayers. It's never easy to loose someone and to have to make the final preparations is A heavy burden but hang in there and it will get A little easier to deal with every day.

PsychoSJG

Thank you all for the well wishes and kind words. It's nice to feel the support. It has all been really hard, but I've been staying strong to carry the family. I was hoping to get closure today on Why he's gone, but they came back with No Cause of Death. I dont know what how to take that. That for some reason, at 56 years old and in full health, my father just stopped living. Services start tomorrow in Queens, NY.

gmill880

My deepest sympathies and very deepest prayers go out to you tonite my brother . I lost my dad 6 months ago ( Aug 13 , 2011 ) . He had cancer and a lot of other med issue's and although expected it was devastating . I know of no other feeling at this point in my life that is as bewildering , humbling , makes you angry , sad , and a feelin of having just lost touch with part of your connection to your past and present than losing a parent . It hurts like he_ll , there is no denying that . The feelings you are going to experience in the coming weeks are going to be different than probably anything you have ever experienced but remember my friend , they are human feelings and you are only human . I think it is important to listen to your feelings and accept them , dont try to hide them or feel you can't show them because of others or your family . If you feel like crying , cry all you want . If you feel like being alone sometime , take that time as yours . If you feel like screaming then scream . Remember to not try to become someone your not for the sake of others or family ... do the very best you can and that you believe is right . Be the man your dad molded you to be ... be yourself . I feel a certainty that it will be good enough .

Remember , that your dad is not gone , he will always live in your heart . And as you deal with his loss in this world and as your saying good-bye for now ... remember , on a distant horizon he is being welcomed home with open arms as just having arrived .

I am praying my soul out for you my brother and may PEACE be with you as you transcend this difficult time . God Bless you and your family .

Gene

acewoodson

You are in our prayers brother. Praying for God's comfort to be with you along with wisdom in handling with all that you need to deal with.

Luko

Belated sympathies...I don't have experience with this kind of loss, but I have lost some very close friends very unexpectedly at young ages. I remember being overwhelmed when you try to figure it all out or look too far ahead. Just put one foot in front of the other and that's all you can do. Not one day at a time. Its one minute at a time. And read what Geno had to say very closely...good wisdom there.

Redtailhawkoz

So sorry to hear this Brother, take some deep breaths , dont be scared to ask for help.... Many prayers for you and your family.......

Un_Sub

I'm sorry for your loss. Our thoughts and prayers are with you in this your time of need!

Rhamlin

Tuly sorry for your loss brother. Pray you and your family are holding up allright.

Bobbo2009

So very sorry for your loss. You and your family will be in my thoughts.

undulac

My prayers are with you and your family. I lost my mother at 25. All I can do is promise you this will get better. May he RIP.

PsychoSJG

Thank you all for all of your kind words and support. He was buried yesterday, and still managed to play some pranks at the funeral (sounds weird, but if you knew the details, it only makes sense that he did it). In the 2 days of the wakes, around 1000 people came to pay their respect, some traveled from other parts of the country. I posted a notice with the info in 5 buildings, and within hours the notice was all over the neighborhood. They even made an announcement at the bowling alley up the block and everyone stopped for a moment of silence. I know a lot of people liked him, but this was over whelming.

The whole thing was nice and well done. Beautiful things were said. And we had a police escort for the procession. At the cemetery we played Spirit In the Sky by Norman Greenbaum as he wished. The wakes were filled with stories and laughter, as well as tears and sadness. Jokes were even cracked while my siblings and his siblings walked the casket through the church, but my father wouldn't have it any other way. Afterward we went to a bar restaurant where the family is regulars, and there were more stories, lots of drinking, a bread fight, and a lot of laughter. That's just how we do things.

Today is our first day of rest, but there is still a very long road ahead. While that road will be long and rough, my family is strong and we will get through it and make my father proud. Once again, thank you all for your support.

jasonusa1

PsychoSJG:
Thank you all for all of your kind words and support. He was buried yesterday, and still managed to play some pranks at the funeral (sounds weird, but if you knew the details, it only makes sense that he did it). In the 2 days of the wakes, around 1000 people came to pay their respect, some traveled from other parts of the country. I posted a notice with the info in 5 buildings, and within hours the notice was all over the neighborhood. They even made an announcement at the bowling alley up the block and everyone stopped for a moment of silence. I know a lot of people liked him, but this was over whelming.

The whole thing was nice and well done. Beautiful things were said. And we had a police escort for the procession. At the cemetery we played Spirit In the Sky by Norman Greenbaum as he wished. The wakes were filled with stories and laughter, as well as tears and sadness. Jokes were even cracked while my siblings and his siblings walked the casket through the church, but my father wouldn't have it any other way. Afterward we went to a bar restaurant where the family is regulars, and there were more stories, lots of drinking, a bread fight, and a lot of laughter. That's just how we do things.

Today is our first day of rest, but there is still a very long road ahead. While that road will be long and rough, my family is strong and we will get through it and make my father proud. Once again, thank you all for your support.

I think you're dad is already proud. Thank you for sharing this.

danielzreyes

May God Bless you and your family.